Tinnitus -ear noise
In tinnitus, the subconscious creates sound after a bad news and/or critical situation. Biology chooses this to keep the person alive and drown out the bad news. The story of Susan, Marc, Anneke and Bono.
In tinnitus, the subconscious creates sound after a bad news and/or critical situation. Biology chooses this to keep the person alive and drown out the bad news.
Susan’s story
During HeartConnection 2 in Hoorn, Susan (age 48) asks her question about tinnitus. At twenty-six, she flew back to Holland from Asia. On the way, the plane gets engine trouble. Susan sits right above the engine. The last hour of the flight she had many fears: if I survive this, soon I will die. Since that time, she has suffered from tinnitus. The sound of her tinnitus is the roar of the engine. With so much fear, her subconscious makes the choice come not to have to hear the bad news. Her subconscious makes noise in her head, like a roaring engine, to protect Susan.
Bad news reports
When asked what bad news stories Susan has heard and when, she lists:
- 22: Her father suffers his first heart attack
- 26 years: engine problems plane – agony and tinnitus
- Age 28: Her father has a motorcycle accident (very critical)
- Age 32: Her father is diagnosed with asbestos in lungs
- 38: Her father dies as a result of asbestos in his lungs
The moment her father “breaks down,” Susan becomes the strong woman every time, who then has to be there for her mother and sister. She takes over her father role, so to speak. The first time she experienced this stress was at age 22. She then feels the fear that her father would die. Four years later, at 26, this stress is repeated, but now she feels the agony of dying herself. The situation repeated itself again at age 28, 32 and 38.
It is high time she finally let go of this death stress. In the process of connecting-melting-letting go of this agony, Susan feels mostly anger toward her father: you’re leaving me pretty much with it. She is angry, furious, sad, alone and feels tension,
Understanding gives awareness
Susan understands the biological story of her tinnitus. In nature, she wants to hear the birds singing, the wind through the trees. Every night before bed she thanks the roar in her head; she understands that the tinnitus wants to protect her from bad news. Each time Susan will so connect-melt-let go, knowing that she is and remains herself. She no longer needs to be the strong woman to replace her father. Susan chooses to have a new focus: in nature, I hear the birds singing, I feel calm and carefree. I choose for myself.
Marc’s story
Marc (28) was taken to the hospital by ambulance after a collision in critical condition. On a stretcher, he is wheeled to the OR. He survives this critical situation. Immediately after this accident, Marc has tinnitus. His sound was a metallic one, like that of the rolling gurney as he was rushed to OR. After tracking down this story, his tinnitus disappeared.
Anneke’s story
Anneke (32) is living on her own as an eighteen-year-old when one day she goes to see her father. She expresses her emotions about how she experienced things in her relationship with her father. Father gets up and walks away from the conversation, slamming the door. Her parents did this regularly when she still lived in her parents’ home. She feels unheard by her father. In her experience, her father does not take Anneke seriously, he does not listen or connect with her, he even walks away. As of this evening, she has tinnitus. She hears a bang in her head every time – like that slamming door. After understanding this story, she can connect-melt-let go with her emotions in relation to her father. Immediately after this moment, her tinnitus disappeared.
The story of Bono
Bono (67) desperately wants to get rid of his tinnitus. He is somewhat compulsive, wants a magic wand, someone has to do it for him. His childhood home was very unsafe with a very aggressive father. The memory he has as a little boy is that of a lot of yelling and the many fights between his parents. He does not believe that his home situation is related to his tinnitus, because his tinnitus must go away! I understand his tinnitus, just not Bono himself. The pain and emotions of his childhood are too frightening for him. He chooses to keep his tinnitus; the anxiety is too great.
Tinnitus questions
- From when do you have tinnitus?
- What happened just before you got it?
- What sound is in your head?
- What bad news stories have you heard? How old were you? And under what circumstances?
- What is your current home situation like?
- What was your family situation like as a child?
- What sounds did you hear in the house as a child?
- Connecting-melting-letting go
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