Mother-Soul-Alone (MZA) – lonely – edema

During the HeartConnection day with horses, Nazli (68) meets with her daughter Semiha. Nazli would like to know why she is so afraid of the dark. Because Nazli does not have enough command of the Dutch language, her daughter translates for her.

The story of Nazli

Nazli moved to the Netherlands when she was 18. After getting married in Turkey, she followed her husband here. It would be temporary. Nazli could not settle down and preferred to return to Turkey. When asked why she is afraid of the dark, I explain to her that something traumatic must have happened in the dark. Such as an accident, a house burned down in the night, incest in the dark or an argument in the evening. Nazli does not remember anything traumatic happening in the dark. During the break, daughter Semiha comes up to me and tells me that her grandmother attempted suicide when she was 13 years old. She threw herself into a well. And a well is dark.

Grandma’s story

To clarify Grandma’s story, I draw Nazli’s family tree. When Grandma is six, her mother dies. The whole family is broken up and Grandma comes to work in a rich family. From the age of 12, Grandma has been afraid of the son of the house, afraid of being raped. At thirteen, Grandma attempts suicide in the well.

The story of Semiha

Then granddaughter Semiha tells how she was left alone during a vacation in Turkey when she was six because her parents planned to return to Turkey for good. They leave for Holland in the night without informing Semiha or saying goodbye. A major trauma for Semiha, who later returns to the Netherlands anyway, as her parents’ remigration plans fall through.

At 18, Semiha goes back to Turkey to get married. Exactly as her mother came to Holland. Semiha will have a son. At 24, she returned to the Netherlands. Her infant son will be six by then. There is a rhythm of 6-12-18-24-and so on in the story. For four generations, a child from this family has been forced to move or emigrate at six. Each time this is experienced as traumatic.

Dark

Then the link to darkness. Grandma is threatened in the dark by the son of the house and, at 13, attempts suicide in the well. Granddaughter Semiha is left alone at night by her parents. Because Grandma’s tragedy is unprocessed, fear remains in the family. As this story becomes clear, Semiha and her mother can connect with it-melt it and let it go.

Mother Horse and Mother-Soul-Alone

We go to the pasture, where Semiha gets to choose a horse. She chooses the mother horse Evelientje, who runs away from her. Exactly as she herself experienced at age six. She sinks to the ground in grief and pain. She feels abandoned, left alone, very alone and despondent. Together with mother Nazli, I go to see Semiha. Mother stays in front of her and hands her a handkerchief. Semiha remains seated in her grief and tremendous pain, mother-soul-only. Suddenly Semiha stands up and opens her arms. Mother takes her in her arms. Four generations of mother-soul-only are now connected-fused-loose. Emotional, discharging and loving. What an intense moment.

Language learning and biology

Afterwards, I explain to the group why mother does not yet speak Dutch. Mother cannot ground herself in Holland because of this Mother-Soul-Alone trauma. From her biology, it is unsafe to be here; she wants to leave at any time. Her body indicates this through fear. Especially learning a language is extra difficult then. “True,” Nazli says. My feeling is that from now on mother Nazli will better understand and even speak the Dutch language. She is now safe in the Netherlands.

Later, Nazli let us know how special she found it, to experience that we are not separate from nature. And how she felt an intense sense of happiness. She also expressed her wonder at how everyone touched on a similar story: that we are all human and the same in this. So that race and background do not matter. Furthermore, she was impressed by her son-in-law, who also attended the One Day: “I don’t know many men who would do something like this and be open about it. Extraordinary!”

Mother-Soul-Alone (MZA)

The moment an MZA conflict becomes active, the kidney collecting ducts close, keeping fluid in the body. Humans then have a better chance of surviving and not drying out. Think of a fish on dry land or the cub who has lost her pack.

MZA can occur after:

• being left alone
• transfer to another country/care home/hospital
• have to flee
• threat in existence
• lose house
• losing a loved one: you’ve lost your ‘pack’
• etc.

This gives a sense of:

• loneliness
• ‘no one is there for me’
• ‘I am not being well taken care of’
• ‘I have to do everything by myself’.

MZA Solution

Once someone has found her or his pack again, the kidney collecting tubes open and release the fluid. As with Nina (72) who is moving to a nursing home. She gets thick swollen lower legs and feet. I explain to her the story of MZA. Her mission is to find a new tribe or pack’. Nina joins the local musical society, gains friends and is greatly appreciated for her musical contributions and as a person. Within a month, her thick swollen lower legs and feet disappeared.

Biphasicity – The biological process Mother-Soul-Alone

• CA (Partial) closure of kidney collection tubes due to increase in cells.
• Symptoms: infrequent urination, fluid retention in some places, e.g.. “pads” under the eyes, bloated hands or feet. Fluid retention is one of the main reasons for obesity.
• 1st Pcl Decomposition of cells by TB bacteria, once the conflict is resolved the person is able to urinate again.
• Symptoms: nephritis (kidney inflammation), smelly night sweat, (extreme) fatigue, protein in urine (body makes extra protein).
• Epi-crisis: chills, strong pains, cold fever, possible blood in urine.
• 2nd Pcl: Fatigue and urination, balance.
• Click here for more information two-phase.
• Kidney collecting tubes are yellow (endoderm) see image below:

Syndrome

In the biological process of syndrome, two biological processes run together. Namely Mother-Soul-Alone in the conflict active phase (CA) and another biological process is in solution 1st Pcl. During the dissolution phase 1st Pcl there is always moisture, to drain conflict building mass, drain, and in the moisture is the right building materials to support the biological process. But because MZA is active, extra fluid is retained in the body. This means that a biological process in solution receives additional moisture, e.g.

• A heart process in solution think of fluid behind the heart.
• A lung process in solution, fluid behind the lungs.
• A knee in solution, giga swollen knee.
• Eyes in solution, swollen eyes.
• And so on.

Tips syndrome

• Hot bath with lots of salt
• Person gets back into the ocean feeling
• Person becomes one with all that is
• Person feels connected again
• Recovery MZA conflict
• Person goes to pee
• Moisture slinks

Marjolein (15)

When I was just fifteen years old, my father died. I knew it would happen, but was powerless to prevent it. At that age, I felt responsible. The years that followed were accompanied by anxiety and guilt. Guilt is a great destructive energy in the body. I gained considerable weight. Later, thanks to the HeartConnection Training, I understood that these pounds stemmed from my Mother-Soul-Alone conflict. I was retaining moisture in order to stay alive longer, like a fish on dry land. There was nothing wrong with me. These pounds made sense to keep me alive biologically. Read more anorexia, bulimia and eating disorders, click here.

Review by Semiha

Bye dear Marjolein,

I took a moment to reply because there is a lot going on.
Anyway, I am someone who does get busy in terms of scheduling but in addition, the internal process touched by the HeartConnection day has been tremendous.

You probably know what I mean: I can’t put it into words very well but know that something in the depths of myself has changed. The moment of being abandoned and my 6-year-old self keep coming back in every situation, I was already aware of that.
I’m getting to know myself better and better in that piece. I thought I had to connect with my mother; that’s right but after the HeartConnection day I knew it wasn’t my biological physical mother but the inner mother within me.

So where I was constantly focused on the girl I now know, the mother is just important. To comfort, to hold and protect. It touches me as I write it. Additionally, it was very beautiful to see the girl in my mother when feeding the horses and the happiness she experienced in doing so.

By now I feel and know that I am going through an important process of feeling. Waves of sadness overwhelming me. I feel vulnerable and skittish. And want to withdraw in the coming time from people/things that take too much energy from me. It’s still a very young piece that I have to deal with. I cherish it.

With a very deep bow to life, and to you,

Semiha

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