From survival to life – Marjolein van der Meulen
Today it is exactly 10 years ago that I had to flee with three small suitcases. The day before I had not known this was going to happen. Years of survival behind me and ahead of me. Luckily I didn’t know what was going to happen at the time. Lost everything in one day, which I would later realize. Completely in survival mode, where are you going with two small kids? We end up in a yurt, in the forest. We can stay here for two weeks. We move from place to place, like nomads. We live on the beach in a yurt, the most special time of my life. In the summer we come to a house in the dunes. We live in nature, this is a powerful reminder. The children tell this story with a smile, they had the idea ‘we are on vacation’. That’s how you are as a mother, you make the best of it.
A special period. Leave everything behind. I leave my companies behind. Start over. I’m going to study biology of the body, I’m taking oral lessons. I delve even more into the subconscious, learn a lot about myself through the algorithmic mathematical rhythms that repeat themselves in patterns. I get it more and more. A few times I get really sick and my confidence in my body and biology is so great that I recover. There was no money, I lived ‘underground’, alone. Because be honest, a pathetic woman, without money, income, house, is not popular. After all, people like success. Biologically a weak person can be a danger to the pack, this person can cause problems for the tribe, so the pack chooses to move on and leave the weaker ones behind, to keep the pack alive.
Connect-merge-release VVL
During this period I develop my own VVL method, born out of necessity. During some disease processes I go to my pain, I breathe to it. More pain arises, no matter how scary it is, I stay in my pain, I go completely into my fear, it gets stronger, more. And suddenly the fear, pain disappears. I see death twice before me, but I recover completely, because I stay in touch with it and breathe towards it. Everything should be complete.
My intuition has given me this to go through serious fears and illnesses. To understand and purify my mind and body. Not knowing what the future would be.
Every day I am grateful to my children. Money had to be put on the shelf to pay for a roof over the head and food. I had to work, I had to take action. A very tough time, sleepless nights, and still teaching again. I travel all over the country, often crying in the car. Make my house available to have some income. I have been scammed several times under the guise of ‘I will help you’. Some students attack me, just like in my private life, I get threatening messages and e-mails every day. Because I say something different? Bring people back to their own responsibility? Or am I just the greatest actor? As painful as this was, they helped me get stronger. They have given me resistance to stand in my strength.
Meanwhile, thousands of people apply VVL every day. #grateful Have all my life lessons developed 10 basic principles. A fantastic organic Training HeartConnection has emerged, with enthusiastic, courageous students. We do many projects together. We use the gun-gun factor. We encourage each other, support each other and we are there for each other. Every year we organize a Trip Abroad, a Summer Week where children are also welcome, organize concerts, boat trip, and so on. We do so many fun things!