From ADD to focus – Sanne’s story – blog 2
Every complaint or illness tells your story. Below is a very special story from Sanne. A question brings Sanne into her own strength and clarity. Her complaints were not being able to concentrate, not being able to follow a conversation, absent, blurry, chaos, bad memory, not being fully aware of her body. Regularly this is called ADD, the loss of concentration. In primary education, a child could be diagnosed with ADD with the annotation: ‘insufficient functioning of the automatic memory’. But if you find out the story of this complaint? What happens then?
The story of Sanne
At the last HeartConnection Training Day, we received the question from Marjolein; who or what do you want to be? That question sent a flood of emotions over me. Phew, what’s happening all of a sudden? And then immediately came to my mind:
I really want to be there all the way!
Marjolein had already picked up on my “vibe” (I was already emptying my tear ducts, so it was obvious) and asked me to come forward. I felt the strong wish that I wanted to be completely there, and Marjolein asked me, when are you not completely there and what does that do to you?
I’ve felt for a long time that I let a lot pass me by, and I don’t do that consciously. I can often only half remember conversations and often not at all. And that always made me feel uncomfortable. To myself and to the other, as if I am not interested in the other. And that is true, only my thoughts run wild with me and I can no longer follow the conversation.
I could feel a strong swirling energy in the center of my chest area. After feeling it for a while, I noticed that it has become more since my accident. When I was 18e I experienced a serious moped accident. When I was brought into the hospital by ambulance, my father stood there in great concern and terror.
I remember well when my father grabbed my hand and told me to fight, I couldn’t die yet.
And so I went to do that. I experienced a lot of intense pain in the hospital and I was regularly not taken seriously in my pain description. I pretended to be a nurse and a surgeon. I felt so small and not taken seriously. But I fought on!
One incident in particular has been the biggest shock afterwards. I had a ruptured liver, and the drains to drain fluid from the wound were no longer in place. I had to get 2 or maybe even 3 new drains in my abdomen.
I was given morphine, but diseased tissue cannot be anesthetized properly, I heard afterwards. I have experienced so much pain above my pain threshold that I probably went out of my (lower) body with my feeling at that moment to survive this process. I still feel myself lying on the operating table where I was “as awake as can be” 2 new drains and the whole hospital was allowed to enjoy my screaming.
Then my body switched off “something” so that I no longer have to experience everything consciously. And that mechanism was still regularly active until recently.
Since I have felt this, I can now feel my body much more. I feel more grounded and my head is calmer. The fog is gone and I feel clarity and peace in my head?!? And I’ve been experiencing that fog in my head for a long time. And that was really an irritation point that really bothered me.
I have now stood up again with a clean clear head and remain standing in my body!
And what/who do I want to be???
Being in the here and now! I feel safe and visible and enjoy everything life has to offer me.
The story continues…..
The Symbolism of my iPhone
My phone broke on Saturday, after a nice HeartConnection session about the story of my eyes. I’m just letting go of old things and gaining insights. I had just canceled the insurance, and luckily it ran for another month. So I made a claim and had to chuckle a bit that I could use the insurance at the last minute.
To have the phone repaired, the “find my iPhone” function must be turned off.
That was one thing and then I accidentally erased my entire phone. oops!
Insight
Heyyyy but if I turn off my own visibility, then I delete myself?!? WOW that is a clear symbolism. Okay thank you iPhone. I will not turn off my visibility anymore!
But also deleted all the beautiful photos from the weekend. Shit!!!!! Oh wait, this also means something. Something about a new beginning with a clean slate? I can embrace it and it’s good!
Sanne Regoort / 2nd year student HeartConnection Training
Practice for naturopathy / www.natuurgenezing.com
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